Today feels kind of anti-climatic considering it's the last day of a year that brought huge changes.
Maybe because my living room is cluttered with baby toys and dog paraphernalia.
Maybe because I haven't showered today (but hope to by the time my hubby gets home).
Maybe because the kitchen is a mess.
In any case, it's going to be a very low-key New Year's Eve. Not that Steve and I normally do anything very grand, but this year will be particularly non-grand. I'm making Chicken Parmesan and we'll probably watch a movie and play games. We may or may not stay up til midnight.
I hope 2013 doesn't think our total lack of planned celebration indicates our feelings about it. It was a year of ups and downs, mostly ups thankfully. Here's a brief rundown of the things I can remember right off the top of my head:
January: major depression caused by a miscarriage, horrible weather, and pregnancy hormones. The highlight of the month was our trip to San Antonio. I loved it! We hope to go back some day.
February: found out we were pregnant again! The weather was still awful but there were some sunny days finally. Dad and family came up for a visit and a couple weeks later Mom did too.
March: found out we were 13 weeks pregnant instead of 8 like we thought. Holy cow! Participated in Spring Break Training week that I'd helped plan for the past few months. Started this new blog.
April: ended my first year of Masters classes, left for Montréal and Québec City for a week. It was so wonderful to be back after 13 years.
May: had my lap band emptied and gained a ton of weight, started summer classes for the first time ever and actually really enjoyed it. Celebrated Memorial Day with my brother Jason and his family.
June: loved the warmer weather, Steve started his new job, I had the first of two baby showers and I got to see good friends. Really started to look pregnant.
July: Mom came up for the 4th of July and taught me how to sew. Later that month, had a baby shower in Cedar City. Gave my notice at work on the 1st.
August: started training my replacement at work (who gave her two-week notice two days before my last day at work), had a going away party at work, became very uncomfortable because my belly was so big. Surprisingly, I didn't mind being pregnant during the summer - I like being warm and wearing summer dresses was comfy. Started Fall classes - my last year of school!
September: stopped working (temporarily), Steve's birthday, welcomed Matthew on the 13th! Mom came to help out for a bit. Lots of adjusting. Only missed one week of classes.
October: started working again, temporarily, part-time, at home. It was stressful juggling school, work, and home life.
November: quit working, this time for good (at least at that job). Hosted Thanksgiving at our house with my mom, Jason and his family, and Josh, Sandra, and Audrina.
December: got A's in my classes, spent a week in Cedar taking care of my mom after her minor surgery, spent Christmas at home in Riverdale with my little family.
Life has changed a lot this past year but I love my little changer, Matty. I am not going to make resolutions this year; I have my "goals" for while I'm 36. However, I do want to make one little change this year. I want to be kinder to myself. I want to forgive myself for not being perfect, for not always being gorgeous, funny, entertaining. I don't want to say anything bad about myself but look for and talk about all the positives. I want to continue to improve, learn, and grow but I won't criticize myself when I take steps backward or fail. I believe this little change can have huge consequences in how I think and see myself, how my son learns to love himself, and the feel in our home. I know I won't always be perfect in this either, but every time I choose to not say something negative will be a huge win.
So, here's to 2013, what a year! I hope we all have a wonderful 2014!
Maybe because my living room is cluttered with baby toys and dog paraphernalia.
Maybe because I haven't showered today (but hope to by the time my hubby gets home).
Maybe because the kitchen is a mess.
In any case, it's going to be a very low-key New Year's Eve. Not that Steve and I normally do anything very grand, but this year will be particularly non-grand. I'm making Chicken Parmesan and we'll probably watch a movie and play games. We may or may not stay up til midnight.
I hope 2013 doesn't think our total lack of planned celebration indicates our feelings about it. It was a year of ups and downs, mostly ups thankfully. Here's a brief rundown of the things I can remember right off the top of my head:
January: major depression caused by a miscarriage, horrible weather, and pregnancy hormones. The highlight of the month was our trip to San Antonio. I loved it! We hope to go back some day.
February: found out we were pregnant again! The weather was still awful but there were some sunny days finally. Dad and family came up for a visit and a couple weeks later Mom did too.
March: found out we were 13 weeks pregnant instead of 8 like we thought. Holy cow! Participated in Spring Break Training week that I'd helped plan for the past few months. Started this new blog.
April: ended my first year of Masters classes, left for Montréal and Québec City for a week. It was so wonderful to be back after 13 years.
May: had my lap band emptied and gained a ton of weight, started summer classes for the first time ever and actually really enjoyed it. Celebrated Memorial Day with my brother Jason and his family.
June: loved the warmer weather, Steve started his new job, I had the first of two baby showers and I got to see good friends. Really started to look pregnant.
July: Mom came up for the 4th of July and taught me how to sew. Later that month, had a baby shower in Cedar City. Gave my notice at work on the 1st.
August: started training my replacement at work (who gave her two-week notice two days before my last day at work), had a going away party at work, became very uncomfortable because my belly was so big. Surprisingly, I didn't mind being pregnant during the summer - I like being warm and wearing summer dresses was comfy. Started Fall classes - my last year of school!
September: stopped working (temporarily), Steve's birthday, welcomed Matthew on the 13th! Mom came to help out for a bit. Lots of adjusting. Only missed one week of classes.
October: started working again, temporarily, part-time, at home. It was stressful juggling school, work, and home life.
November: quit working, this time for good (at least at that job). Hosted Thanksgiving at our house with my mom, Jason and his family, and Josh, Sandra, and Audrina.
December: got A's in my classes, spent a week in Cedar taking care of my mom after her minor surgery, spent Christmas at home in Riverdale with my little family.
Life has changed a lot this past year but I love my little changer, Matty. I am not going to make resolutions this year; I have my "goals" for while I'm 36. However, I do want to make one little change this year. I want to be kinder to myself. I want to forgive myself for not being perfect, for not always being gorgeous, funny, entertaining. I don't want to say anything bad about myself but look for and talk about all the positives. I want to continue to improve, learn, and grow but I won't criticize myself when I take steps backward or fail. I believe this little change can have huge consequences in how I think and see myself, how my son learns to love himself, and the feel in our home. I know I won't always be perfect in this either, but every time I choose to not say something negative will be a huge win.
So, here's to 2013, what a year! I hope we all have a wonderful 2014!